You still stand there silently...

I feel suffocated like I can’t breathe no more
Feel like I need to run away as fast as I can
But I run out of my breath, I stop and I gasp
And you’re right there by my side
You hold out a glass of water and I throw it down
You give me the bottle and all I do is frown
You say not a word you just stand there smiling
A smile that used to calm me now ignites me
I burst out flare up
Start to yell and shout
I keep screaming at you
You stand there silently
The smile still on your face but I see a tear fall to the ground
It wasn’t meant to be this way I swear
I never meant to hurt you, yell at you, punch you
There’s something eating me within and I don’t know what it is
All I know is it comes out whenever I see you
You remind me of what I should be, what I can
Maybe, is that what makes me angry?
I can see me in your eyes. You know me inside out
Is it that that makes me run, that that freaks me out?
I thought that I was done, thought I’d left it behind me
But then I look down and I see your tear drop staring up at me..