Birthdays..

The day when we all are born is celebrated as our birthday...when we are just born joy floats all around and when we complete our first year in this world..it’s a huge affair in many people's life...a ritually sanctioned pooja or a huge celebratory party...as the years pass and we start following the footsteps of the world the concept behind this day and the motive behind the celebration to feel our love keeps on changing....

May be as a kid I never felt that void which I feel now as what actually is the purpose behind b'days...is it merely a day to give treats or open presents…… to spend time at home with family and relatives or to have a day out with your pals….is it about throwing big bashes or spending a lonely time pampering oneself….different lifestyles make zillions of ways to express this day…some with zeal others with less enthusiasm…

For me bdayz have been a great part of me….I remember the day when I was a new joinee in std.1^st….my first experience as how to celebrate this day in school…so my dad bought me chocolates…at the time of the distribution I fell short of them and had to take them back home without sharing them with the class…so yeah my first time was awkward!!!! Then most of my birthdays went receiving calls and wishes…mum dad doing arrangements for party from cakes to return gifts…every single aspect and my uncles decorating my home with colourful streamers , balloons , delicious cuisines , loads of chocolates and ice cream….my home filled with I don’t know how many people…always crowded with my relatives n family friends and friends’s friends…anybody and everybody was invited…

As we kept shifting cities my birthday got new styles….very few friends at my place in the evening....mum making her fancy dishes…sister making secret greeting cards and getting this special touch with sweets… more people may join in specially my extended family members if nearby….still it was so much fun..

Now I have just entered my twenties…and things have changed so rapidly in past few years….I have lost the excitement to remind everyone that my birthday is _ (dash) days away…and to remind every single person I know to wish me that day without fail…

Presently all I do on my birthday is to order cake and spend my day in college with regular chores…the people who remember wish me and very few friends call me at midnite….Few of them still take pains to hunt me a gift… I now hardly bother as how many remember this day as I'm not bapu…lolz…..

I wonder how bdayz in my life had changed their destiny from giving me intense happiness to just a day with no significant importance any more....Birthdays are not special days , it’s a day made special by  the efforts of extra- special people in your life…may it be your family , relatives or friends…I don’t know but till the date I have got some people in my life for whom I hold a special place and they keep on putting their will in creating a day of remembrance I hopefully won’t be forgetting this day....

Jerks in my lyf.....

Time slipped from my hands

We all got scattered in lonely sands

Sitting in the crowd was not the same

Laughing out loud unnecessary not gets us now fame

Walking down miles together

Feeling everybit as forever

Things have changed

Ways to be in each others life have remained

Still mad,crazy and weird

Making our ways to smile

There are so many wrongs

But just a moment,makes all the difference

I don't know what we have in store

There is one thing I am sure

No matter how many miles distance increase

We are gonna be together to forget all our miseries

I cherish what we had and what we have

Just make sure when you need me to look back

and I will put us back on track..........

Dedicated to all my idiots for making life so easier.

You all suck in some or the other way but somehow you all fit perfectly in my world...................

A piece of me that I can’t let go...

I’ve buried myself,
Deep within,
Under layers of fear, away from your sight.
It’s you I run from but I hide from myself...
I thought we were over, I thought we were through
But you’ll haunt me forever, I best make peace with you
You’re a piece of me I can’t let go
You’re a piece of me that I didn’t know.
You taught me to stand on my own two feet
You taught me that I am all that I really need
You taught me the value of what I have
The giggles, the laughter, you gave me all that
I can’t hate you, I can’t forget you.
I can’t regret you and lock you away.
‘Cause you’re a piece of me that I didn’t know
A piece of me that I can’t let go...

No turning back…

When I look back at my time
I have regrets but also a smile
I say if I could I’d do it different
but then I don’t want to become that different…
I’m tired but I like who I am
They say it’s your choices that matter
I made mine and now there’s no going back
I chose the path I best knew then
Stubborn as I am I’ll stick to it now
It’s not like it only goes down..
There are the rough patches but every time you fall down u dust yourself and stand up again
Ya it’s fun to ride fast and free when everything is smooth sailing,
But what’s the fun if there are no scars?
No memories no tears?
There’d be no value for it all
So screw the ‘if-only’s
I love my scars too much
Though hidden beneath my smile... They’re in my every touch.