When I almost lost myself.....following the wrong ride

I wish time could stand still

I could go back and change what didn’t went right

Wonder if things wouldn’t have been the same as they remain now

If one could know the worth of taking risks

Limiting the limit was never my take

So which way to travel, is all I wanna know

Losing out my heart over my role

Complicating things that matter most

Looking into directions with no light

Walking through tunnels with no ends

Running away, excusing every single day

Don’t know how to understand what I want

Closing my eyes uptight, tears halfway on my cheeks

Silently smiling with no explanations anymore

Don’t want everything to reside in my soul

Lamenting and repenting on my choices

Suddenly I woke up and realized

How smartly I led my dark side play all the while....

'NO' Strings attached

You know when you look at me; know what’s inside my mind

I go numb with insights you have about me, all those streaks

Being with someone so close, long years even now to be disclosed

Obviously you care for me from your core

I know we are there for each other

And you ought to know whatever makes my life upside

Sometimes I go crazy, finding all your attention

Wishing myself to be locked up in solitude

Sense of escape lingering through my veins

Freaking our glory moments and bond

You need to understand, I am not as simple as nights and days

I may have the nerve to resolve all the problems in the world

But when it comes to be static or permanent

I scare myself up, lost in no directions

There are no complications as such

No restrictions or regulations to give up

I just love wandering like an untied soul, always on my own

Hoping never ever to be fixed down

If you try holding me in your arms

There are chances I might just fly away in silence

If you want me to protect and save me from being hurt

I might rebel to be left broken and fallen all alone

I need you, that even my sure

Still I want a distance to grow

I know my nature is bizarre and even though

I love you so much I want you to be far

If you keep forcing me to bind us uptight all the time

I might end up unintentionally leaving you with a scar.......